Life Updates 2.

What if this is the end for real?

Would I rather live my life and end the story as a coward or would I rather be the one who decides how it ends?

My heart asked me that the other day and you know what? I think she is right. I have been a coward and I am done playing in the mud. That’s what I told myself.

I might not be able to have penetrative sex and so not be able to create content that reflects that. But I can take this as an opportunity to elevate my creativity.

What if people stop subscribing? Well, I believe the people who are for me are not all about what I do, but who I am. And they will be willing to journey every phase with me.

I might not have as much energy as I used to, but I can take this as an opportunity to rest and learn how to balance between sharing and retreating. Between showing up in the world and showing up for myself.

My body, my liver, and kidney might be slowing down. But my spirit is wild awake and this ends how I say it ends.

I thought my liver and kidney procedures are supposed to help me get my life, body and spirit back, but I now I see that is just going to get my body back. My spirit never left, was just waiting to be reinvited into the party. And my life? That has always been in my hands.

So, I took a deep breath, went outside on my balcony, made a hemp tea, got high, and wrote some chapters in my book. (This long-held dream is ready to be birthed, even if it’s the last thing I do) and I made a new erotic video for my Fancentro and I think I might have found a new flow and idea for this space that truly is aligned with the totality of who I am.

I am so grateful to my heart for never leaving me. Okay! I’ll head over to schedule this new post bow for 8pm.  Would you let me know how you enjoyed it?🥹